Cetera

cetera @ 2005-02-05T14:45:00

2005-02-05T22:45:13Z

Take the quiz: "What is your political orientation?"

WUNist
You're a WUNist! (World United Nationalist.) You hold beliefs that fall in the range between the views of the democrats and republicans. You're probably in support of globalization. You like to compromise and you're a level-headed person that considers what's best for everyone. You enjoy when conflicts are solved and you're usually the person best qualified to solve them.

I like the picture.....

2005-02-05T22:29:14Z

Period Goth

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cetera @ 2004-10-25T17:33:00

2004-10-26T00:33:42Z

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Tender Kiss
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cetera @ 2004-10-25T17:10:00

2004-10-26T00:25:31Z

1. Tell me something obvious about yourself: My eyes shake.

2. Tell me something about yourself that I don't know: I have the soul of a dragon.

3. What is your biggest fear?: Being unsatisfactory.

4. Do you normally take the safe route or the shortcut?: Safe route, I like to be certain.

5. What is the one thing you want the most that you can't buy with money?: Love.

6. What is your most treasured possession?: I have no clue, let me think about it.

7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do the most often?: I am unconfident.

8. Tell me something about you sexually that I don't know: I want to try anal sex (and not in me).

9. Tell me something about you sexually that everybody knows: I hva eonly slept with one woman ever.

10. What is your favorite lie to tell?: I do not know, I try to lie as little as possible.

11. Name something you have done once that you can't wait to do again: Have sex on the beach.

12. Are you the jealous type?: Sometimes, yes.

13. What is the 1 person, place or thing that you can never say no to?: I don't know.

14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?: helped me figure out my life.

15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?: Walk around in my Faire garb at school.

16. When was the last time you cried?: I don't remember, but sometime this last summer.

17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?: This past Saturday and Sunday.

18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?: Yes, although I do blind people.

19. Name something embarrassing you did while drunk: Woke up at 5 in the morning, heard peole groaning, and asked if people were fucking.

20. If you post this in your journal, do you want me to answer it? Sure.

cetera @ 2004-09-21T21:37:00

2004-09-22T04:39:32Z

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Interesting. Maybe I really am a bear. A dragon bear! Mwhahahahahaha! Yeah

Drama sucks. I suggest people not say anything unless they mean to say it all. I also suggest that people not whack on each other or else I will have to heklp friend who got beat on go to the police. And I am perfectly willing to defend myself.

cetera @ 2004-09-13T22:10:00

2004-09-14T05:12:54Z

I think I have figured it out. Iam not lonely so much as wishing for a person to be sensual with. Flirting is only so much of the package. I just long to touch a woman in a certain way. Pardon me if tis sounds perverted and desperate, but it's really not. It's just a thought about me and my nature. And that of reality. Because there really is a difference between love and passion. Right now, I would like some passion.

cetera @ 2004-06-30T22:50:00

2004-07-01T05:50:29Z

Cetera Highway

Fame City	9
Study Hall	13
Dumpsville	56
Confusion Lane	118
County Jail	302
Please Drive Carefully

Where are you on the highway of life?

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cetera @ 2004-06-13T23:22:00

2004-06-14T06:24:26Z

How to make a Cetera

Ingredients:

1 part pride

1 part self-sufficiency

5 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add a little lustfulness if desired!

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Ingredients:

3 parts competetiveness

5 parts self-sufficiency

5 parts beauty

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add lovability to taste! Do not overindulge!

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Funny how similar they are, no?

Long time dsince I last posted

2004-06-13T20:11:51Z

Schools out/ It's good times. And bad times. There has been much drama down at Morgan's since summer started. I am glad to be getting away for a dsay of rest. Israel was an asshole last night. One of my female friends was drunk, and so she started top suck on my neck. I didn't even realize it ar first. Nothing even happened because I was comfortable with that. So yeah, he attacked em over that. I neevr asked for his approval of my lifestyle. I just asked him to be a friend. He starts going off at the end of the arguement about how he tried to help. Who said I asked for help?

Themn Hunter broke up with Tara. On one shallow hopelessly romantic level, I am jappy. On the other hand, I feel bad, both for having that little bit which is happy and I feel bad for her as a friend. Like she told me, she just needs friends. I can put aside my personal shit for that.

Thankfully todays just a resting day. I need it.

cetera @ 2004-05-01T03:41:00

2004-05-01T10:41:07Z

I ahve decided that for my motorcycle, I want to get an old military issue and get it fixed up, maybe painted, and ride that around. Like an old WWII model or something. That'd be awesome. Just aweosme.

Especially with me in the military man. My BDUs, comabat boots, myself, and my motorbike arrive at school one day. be soooooooo awesome. Well, at elast it is in ym head.

cetera @ 2004-05-01T02:47:00

2004-05-01T09:47:46Z

It's like 3 fucking o clock in the morning and I am talking with Mary about language and mechanics of the quantum world, while I talk to Silke about quantum mechanics and philosophy. Greatness.

cetera @ 2004-03-24T18:51:00

2004-03-25T02:53:56Z

Not a whole lot to pdate on really....

My life seems to have stagnanted again. I am not really doing anything. My grades arecrap though. I need to work more, but I have problems finding the motivation to do it.

My plan for the summer is to get a job at UPS and work my ass off, get pout of my mother's house, and then do IS (independent study) next year so that I can work the UPS gig. Here's hoping.

Tata for now

Maybe a tad too on the head....

2004-03-04T04:13:28Z

Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone
to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't
been in much relationships or you need to work
on how to handle them. You always seem lost in
a daydream about the person you care about
most.

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Life is moving again...

2004-02-26T21:41:36Z

Hey all,

Sorry I haven't posted for a bit. Life was in stagnation mode. My mother is in the hospital for a hysterectomy and is getting out today. I had 3 days of freedom and spent them the best way possible: Out of the house. I also had a DnD get-together withg Keith, Josh, Joey, and Joe. First time playing Dnd in a while and it felt really good.

Last night I attended and read in a poetry slam. It was awesome. I was far from the ebst, but I read a short piece. I was nervous as hell. Let's see what I can do this next time I get to go do one of these things. It's only a $2 participation charge too. Better than the $5 for audience.

With all these happenings lately, my poetry life has reopened and I plan on finishing up several of the poems that are sitting in my notebook in the nextr week here. I should get back to my spirituality too. Start practicing Tai Chi again and everything. I also want to pick up something new, like a martial arts form, or maybve head off in a direction completely unpredicted. All I want is a new experience which will make me sit up.

I have Faire registration coming up in a few weeks. That means my grades need to be up come March 20. Maybve that'll be the experience I need again. I dunno. I have found out that I love draver's caps. I need to get one. And some outfits to match. I have my romanti get-ups, now I need to expand out there too.

Well, ta-ta for now! I am great!

Gotta say this....

2004-02-20T05:14:21Z

This is my LJ. yes, I bitxch, yes, I moan. But that's what this journal is here for. It gives me a vent on many of my feelings. And if people have a problem with that statement, then toughshit. I typ here to make myself feel better, and if people have a [roblem with that, don't read. This is ahndy and effective for me. I don't have ato dig out a journal. I can just sit at a comp and type away. It's good. Anyhow, now that that's off my chest, I'm good!

Alone

2004-02-12T07:19:48Z

Why is it that I am intimate with no one at my school? And I don't mean physically. I want some emotional intimacy. I miss the people who I used to be close to. I feel like I've drifted from them, because I have. I feel like a flame amongst the glaciers in the north. I feel like a polar bear amongst the penguins. I am the outsider the loner. But I must remind myself that I CHOSE this path. I am responsible for this. And now I pay. This is my time of forging. Well, let the hammer ring out! I will be forged anew!

Okay enough melodrama. I have given up on love. Possibly for a long as hell time. I've been tired of jumping through hoops without ever getting anything back. What's the point? I dunno, I am so disilusioned with the whole thiong right now.

Another thing that pisses me off is people say I am a flirt. I am not. I am friendly and affectionate. I dunno anymore. If I am flirtatiopus, it is unintentinal.

Anyhow, off to do homework now.

Up late working...

2004-02-06T09:16:50Z

I am up really late trying tro do two essays, an outline for a third, plus some chem and math problems. This si what I get for procrastinating. Oh well. I'll take a nap after school tomorrow.

I would really like ot be working on some poetry right now. I have a piece that needs a first edit, and another piece that needs another edit before I post for feedback. I should get a writer's feedback workshop going out here. Could be really helpful.

In the meantime, I think nI am becoming more confident. Overly aggressive women are beginning to piss me off. It's not that I have a problem with being overly agressive in and of itself, it's when they take it out on me and let it become directed at me that I disagree with.

I can be quite the loud mouth, bu I am beginning to find again that quiet can be good. I don't always need to be talking. Besides, so few people are worth it anyhow. I need to find more intellectuals. I am beginning to do so, I hope.

Anyhow, back to work. *Drudges in the trenches like a WWI vet*

cetera @ 2004-01-31T17:19:00

2004-02-01T01:23:40Z

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Dragon Deity and Allignment:	Tiamat- Lawful Evil
Dragon Age:	625
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Dragon Age:	93
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Dragon Age:	884
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Reminding myself....

2004-02-01T00:37:34Z

....that I must fight my codependent urges!

There is a girl who I like, but don't know very well. Dunno, I think she is kinda sweet on me thougyh. I like doing labs in chem for I get to talk to her. She is sweet and cute, and more ythan halfway intelligent in my opinion. She seems kinda innocent, though we have similar tastes in music.

And yet I remind myself. You barely know her, she barely knows you. You both come from two different worlds. And don't start getting over emotional. It's the last bit that gets me.

I'm back to feeling lonely sometimes and wanting someone. I am feeling attraction again. So much for that phase of not being worried about it ebing over with.

Why do you women do this to me? Or rathjer, why do I do this to myself?

I went to Lobos with my father, her girlfriend, bronwyn, and her son today. It was nice to walk all over and be out there agin. think it'd be a beautiful place to go on a date. Maybe even sneak obver there during the ngiht and have a picnic on the beach. It's soooo beautiful. But it'd be hella cold.

One of my friends posted earlier about how she wants to go make out in the rain with someone. It made me think about how long its been since I kissed anyone. And how much I miss kissing and holding and cuddling with someone. I don't miss sex though. For some reason.

SAnyhjow, that's all for now. I feel much better having discourged all this information. Tata!

cetera @ 2004-01-24T13:23:00

2004-01-24T21:24:11Z

Your Seduction Stye: "Sweet Talker"

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"

You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...

Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear

Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing

The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life

You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.

Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

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Jade

2004-01-24T07:29:31Z

I am jaded. Just don't fucking care anymore. Why should I care about love when all it does anymore is hurt me? What did I do? uck it. If something come's, it will come. But I give up. It'll have to shove itself up my nose for me to notice. I could care less right now. am so sick and tired of all this love shit. People say they fall in love, but when they say "I'll love you forver", they really mean until they quit caring. Fucking hate this shit.

Hate women with no scruples more.

Tired now.

G'night.

cetera @ 2004-01-21T19:51:00

2004-01-22T03:52:11Z

I am an Intellectual

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I sit here laughing. Am I really that intellectual?
I would like to think so, but I can back nothing up.
I sit her an laugh. Son of a bitch, I hate finals.

cetera @ 2004-01-19T02:54:00

2004-01-19T11:14:27Z

Fucking insomnia. I am going crazy again. I know it. I am beginning to feel as insane as one of those crazy girls at SHS. These weid girls who just crazy. I know they just act. I can feel it from them. Like You caan't show someone something else? Stupid defense mechanisms. We all need to grow up and get over this fear of rejection. shrugs* Well, maybe.

I think it all starts in school. Everyone ridicules everyone else. And then we grow up. Supposedly most of us are more mature and open, but not everyone grows up. And sometimes we just need that damn defense mechanism. Damnit. There's no peace. If only I'd had a defense mechanism other than isolation. I could be so different. But what am I saying? I live with no regrets. Why regret what is unchangeable?

Or is it? Damn. Quantum theory makes everything so damn bizarre. I want to understand it. Not even use it, or develop it. Just understand.

I guess I just want to be able to walk around unprotected, no mechanism to defend myself. I guess I want something like when I sleep in the nude. All day I walk around with clothes on. After that, it's a freeing experience to strip down. I never could understand why people always want to keep themsselves so damn covered when they are in their nice warm beds. I guess I want something like that emotionally and spiritually.

I think I've grown spines though. I prick anyone out far enough from me. Anyone who fights through it, well, I'm really a big teddy bear. At least I think so. Damn you Becky. You put me on edge. I trusted you, you bitch. I know I'll get over it, but you fucking betrayed me! *sigh*

I dunno why I continue to write. Probabl because I am having insomnia. It's already past three in the morning. I should probably edit some of my poems-in-work, but I don't feel for it right now. I ahve emotion enough to write a new poem, but no energy.

Which reminds me, I need to revisit the old teatre in school. It's awesome. Especially to see the actors names of 20 years ago. Put me ina right historcal/nostalgic/connected feeling. I felt the history in that theatre. It was like being back in Italy. I can see why people like Europe nowadays. That sense of continuation.

I think I want to learn German and go live in Germany. Well, maybe not live but visit. I want to see Silke. I do miss her so.

Hehehe. All of you are gonna have such a long post to read when you all get online.

I miss Ren. Faire. I miss my fellow yeomen. Family, thats what we are. I miss the confidence which I got from flirting.

Poly-amorism bugs me. I dunno why. It just does. Maybe its cause I am the completel opposite. Monoamoristic is what I am. I have issues with dating more than one person ata time, even if we're not together. Geez. I am weird. I admit to having thought of cheating. But thats not for me. I am dedicate dna dloyal in a relationship. The same with my friends. I amdedicated and loyal.

I laugh. I am such a pretentious bastard. And a cynic too. But with some very optimistic tendencies. Well, now aren't I a perfect example of hypocrisy.

I spent 20 minutes on this post. I think I am good now.

Crashed and burning

2004-01-19T10:18:16Z

I hate people who stop talking to you and refuse ot tell you why. It just peeves me off. It gives me no feedback, not telling me if i did something wrong. How am I supposed to improve if I don't know how to improve? It's not like I can look in a mirror and automatically tell what is wrong with me. Hell, I'd be fine if I could.

It's depressing, then I get angry. It pisses me off endlessly. WHAT DID I DO YOU BTICHES???? Fuck it. Is it really worth my time? Yes. Because if I know what is wrong, I can fix it. Maybe I should just let it go. I generally do. But I want to improve myself. I can't tell when do something wrong around people. You are all so damn strange.

Fuck. Where's the release valve? There are times I can bearly wait for the infinite silence of death to come. Nothing to worry about. No feelings. And then I wake up and remind myself that there are some people worth it out there.

I am probably one of the wirdest sane people out there to meet. Sometimes becoming a hermit does ound good. Only living to survive. But that's what I do already huh?

Fuck it. Maybe prison wouldn't be so bad. Structure, being passed around like the masturbatory sock. Heh. Maybe Joe has it right. Maybe I am the cabin boy for the world. Whatever.

Okay. Done ranting now. I feel MUCH better. Gonna call someone tomorrow. Someone I haven't spoken wth in a while. I need to call Tesss at any rate.

Warning!

2004-01-19T09:05:44Z

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The Basics
Male/Female:	Male
Heterosexual/homosexual/bisexual?:	Hetero
Are you certain of your sexual orientation?:	Yes, quite.
If not, why arn't you? If you are, how do you know?:	Just an experience I had.
Your age:	17
How often do you think about sex in a normal day?:	shrugs i don't count
How often do you think about other sexual acts besides intercourse?:	shrugs I don't really care.
Have you ever had sex?:	Yep....
Do you like...
Vaginal sex:	Yes
Anal sex:	shrugs Haven't tried. Not even on the priority list.
Oral sex:	Never met a woman who did it very well.
Fingering/handjobs:	I like to give. For receiving, see above.
Something not mentioned above that you like:	Hearing the woman moan softly
Which of the above do you prefer?:	Vaginal
Intrests
What (if any) fetishes do you have?:	Sucking on nipples!
Do you like sexual situations with more than one person?:	Never tried.
With several people of the same sex?:	Nope
The opposite sex?:	shrugs Sounds interesting.
Or even sexual situations with several people of diffrent sexes?:	shrugs sounds interestng
If you haven't tried any of the above, might you in the future? Why/Why not:	Sure, just for the experience
Do you have a steady partner?:	Nope. Been a while now
Do you use protection?:	She was on the pill.
How important is foreplay to you:	I definitely enjoy it : )
The Kiss
Do you like kissing people/a person?:	Oh yeah....
What is your favorite part of kissing?:	The passion
Tounge or no tounge?:	Depends on the skill with the tongue
Where is the best place to be kissed (on your body):	My lips or neck
Where is the worst place to be kissed (on your body):	Haven't been kissed everywhere
Who do you wish you could kiss?:	Thora Brich laugh
How important is kissing in a serious relationship?:	Very. I need that passion.
And...
What's your favorite sexual position:	Ummm... lemme get some more experience
Where is the oddest place you've ever had sex:	The beach
Where do you want to have sex:	LOL....in amovie theatre? Only plae in public I wanna try.
Would you mind if people watched?:	Would depend on who and the situation
How important is sex in your life:	shrugs I've done without. I'll continue.
Name a fantasy you have:	A room filled with candles and crea, and strawbeeries, ice too, and well, my lover of course!
Do you like having sex...
With toys?:	Nope
In the dark or light?:	Low-light. More erotic, I think.
Outside?:	Depends on where...
In costume?:	What type of costume?
In bondage?:	Maybe
Submissive/dominate?:	I switch off
With lubricant?:	shrugs
Flavored condoms?:	odd look
With anything else unusual?:	cream, strawbeerys, hot wax, ice....
Finally...
Do you like this survey?:	shrugs

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